Need to be strong

I realli hate myself sometimes! I need to be strong, I have to. I am far too weak still...but how strong can i grow? I have no idea.

Feeling damn depress rite now... I want to pack my bag and leave to somewhere else...I hope it won't be too late! I want to have my own sweet time, forget things happened. Surrounded by new things, wanna to start a new life.find myself..Should I depart and go now? Leave all the things behind? Why there are so many doubts in my mind now....

I know I can't, I am dreaming....But how hard can it be..I know i can, I am not dreaming.....

i always assume ppl understand me..but actually they dun....becoz i shut my own door...

I want to return to the same old day....happy day..which I can laugh loudly...things are always sweet at the beginning...but time changes, ppl change, nothing will be the same anymore..I know

I want to find new friends, I want a more exciting life.....I am searching now>>>